October 3: Took pole dancing photos. You remember my enrollment in pole dancing class? Well, I decided to take that a step further by agreeing to take some marketing pole dancing photos for the studio against my better a judgment. It’s a bit nerve-wracking to put myself out there in that venue to possibly be judged by others. We’ll see what happens. Hopefully, the pictures comes out well.
October 4: Fearless fail
October 5: Fearless fail
October 6: Fearless fail
October 7: Fearless Fail
October 8: Fearless Fail
October 9: Submitted messages on Linkedin. I’ve decided to donate my services to deserving non-profits around serving NJ. Despite what my gut was telling me I decided to alert people to my new endeavor via Linkedin message. I was afraid sending these message would seem like spam to some. However, I carefully went through my connections and sent the messages along. While didn’t get many responses, I’m happy wasn’t labeled as spam by others.
I’m ashamed to admit that all my plans to be fearless this past week were all major failures. I have no one to blame but myself. I had every intention of doing something scary during the week. However, I realized I set my fearless goals were a little to unrealistic. I planned on backing into a parking lot, diving into an indoor pool, doing a fitness photo shoot in a bikini and confronting a former friend. While I had the best of intentions, I soon learned working up to those big fears will take much more time. Tomorrow I vow to remember accept that I am still a work in progress as I continue on this never ending journey to be fearless and live.
P.S. You probably noticed this is post is extremely late. The truth is I was afraid of judgement while admitted I failed to the world. Go easy on me.